I... I don't know if this is going to work afterall. =-.-=

[wolfwings]

I just drove back to the PS to pick up my stuff...

Sherwood is likely asleep, and Bill is playing a video game in his room like usual...

But Changa is off at the Gym, Mark is finishing a late-night job, and Rodney isn't home yet...

And I just can't stop crying. =-.-=

I... I don't know if I can physically stand to have to leave here... I never realized how much everyone here really does mean to me... until I left, thinking I'd never come back, and now I've come back... supposedly only for an hour or two to pick up my remaining stuff and drive back with it...

But I just can't stop crying...

Comments

[lionman.livejournal.com]

*LionHUG!*

*Nuzzles You*

[jwoulf.livejournal.com]

What is your reason for leaving the PS, this is new news to me. Anyways, I hope everything works out for you. *Hugs & Nuzzles*

[manawolf.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Moving is hard.

Moving away from a support system is harder.

Even when you WANT to move, it makes you feel unbalanced, like the rug was yanked out from under you. You're loosing what you know, and have nothing yet to replace it with.

It'll be okay, though. You won't float for ever, or even for long. You'll figure out when you need to set your clock and where the laundry is and what the best roads to food are. These little things we don't notice, usually, but are so important.

You've been at the PS a long, long time. You've done a lot of development there. It makes sense that cutting away this period of your life is hard.

But you can do it, Wolf, as much as I could move out and put my name to a lease.

I think it's time for you to move, and I think you know that. It's also really, really hard. And that's okay. It doesn't mean you can't do it. It just means you will have to work through it.

I'm here if you need me.

[delphi-of-clf.livejournal.com]

Well...I know I've missed a few things, but why are you leaving?

[mira-fastfire.livejournal.com]

oh...! *HUGS*!!!

My love, I don't know what I can say that Oneesan hasn't already...

Grieving is hard, but let yourself feel the loss. And then let yourself move on. Staying in that (spiritual and physical) place won't let you grow, won't let you begin to be who you need to be.

I love you.

[sardonicus.livejournal.com]

I felt a lot like that the day I left El Segundo. I had lived in that apartment for nine years with the same neighbors, folks I liked and enjoyed being next to. It was incredibly painful, almost heart-breaking.

But I had to do it. Time had come for a change and leaving was part of it. And without leaving, I wouldn't have the love and quality of life that I do now.

[sebkha.livejournal.com]

I personally consider the PS a nigh-sacred cultural site, so I think I understand some of your emotion. You appreciate anything better when you can see it from different angles. Right now, being transient but still knowing the feeling of residence.

The very act of change is what allows you to appreciate the old and to achieve the new, though. It's good to move.

[otana.livejournal.com]

*sighs and hugs*

I can really relate. Like manawolf and sardonicus, I had no idea how difficult it was to really move until I had to do it. darkserapha saw what I wreck I was moving all my stuff, how I was throwing away things that had incredible sentimental value just to get it overwith. *shakes head*

Moving is tough. It's change, and it's scary, and it's emotional. But it happens for a reason, and you will be happy again. And hey, you can always go visit the PS ... are you moving nearby? It's just a stone's throw from the Cafe anyway, so I guess you could visit at one of the meets. *snugs*

Moving is...not easy...

[tigrekat.livejournal.com]

It took me a month to go through all the stuff in my apt. My neighbors within my 7 unit apt bldg didn't want me to leave. That makes it harder.
But the landlord wanted to rennovate the place, so I had to move.
I will miss my neighbors and the enormous amount of space that apt had, the garage that was mine to park in front of (street parking sucks)during that time span, and the people I used to see in the mornings before I left for work. And in those eight years, it was always safe there, I could come home at 3am and no one accosted me.
It was hard to tell my neighbors I wasn't coming back to live there after the rennovation, I have since found a place I've always wanted to live at and may possibly be for a long time. Besides, I've already become acquainted with some of my new neighbors, so it made the move alot easier to deal with.
*lots and lots of hugs* it will get easier over time, slowly but surely.