there goes that doll again

Sep. 8th, 2025 05:15 pm
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pride got tornado warningd out after like one hour :( wah

afaik everyone made it back safe bc it touched down in a burb northwest of city center where we were but boo hiss guess thats the one thing bout outside markets!!!!

btw if you want a newsletter about what kind of prints n crap im lugging around in a briefcase this link will take you to signup now!! i changed the url sorry. if you spend money i send you things in the mail but otherwise: free newsletter on stuff im printing

im trying to watch the new ("last" lol) conjuring franchise movie but its bad and laments demonic posesion is not taken SERIOUSLY :(((

brr chilly
i also had a few paintings of gay dragons specifically for pride that didnt find any homes but who knows. theyll eventually pop up at least once in my shop

this movie is terrible perhaps i will elaborate later

i am going to get to sit next to the LIZARDS if i get to go to town common con!!
need to make the hike to pay entry, wah

my dad isnt feeling super so is going to get his bloods checked, its sad n scary to think he still has to drive all over alabama to get treatments of whatever type he may need.

alph is back at work and bc he was off for a week he probably has to do a weeks worth of mail in One Day so ren will probably be sad mad later about that.

i need to draw my dragon friends dragonses and finish this bad movie and sit with an onion. an onion who becomes distressed and runs away if she sees me start to pull on a strand of grass in a pot. truly cats are small animals with very big and complicated feelings and we have much to learn from them.

now back to this terrible movie and drawing, lol

pic-a-day august 2025

Sep. 2nd, 2025 10:24 pm
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august always feels like there's nothing going on, but then suddenly ALL the things are happening in august x_x

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Aug. 31st, 2025 01:27 pm
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so i really fell off the wagon writing the last few days of this month x.x sorry blaugust, where i blog each day in august. i did my best and then got overwhelmed with the liminal space between two events being loaded with other chores and things.

i think i was originally going to talk about horror? i've lost my burning furvor over a few days, but i can come back to that.

so i watched Weapons (2025) and the thing is that for its technical prowess and acting prowess i did not like it. nothing against ripping and popping heads, everything against the first kill being a gay man who we never learn the name of. and the second kill being his husband. and then the heavy, HEAVY allegory that cancer = parasite. they were laying parasite imagery on thick from the very start of the film, but by the end it's impossible to ignore.

thing is, i kind of get it. the director/writer admitted this film was done as a sort of excersize in venting a difficult death in his life. he said in interviews that he was the child of a really bad alcoholic and so grew up feeling an inversion of caregiver roles. and i think when you put those together with the cancer imagery, it suggests maybe that parent recently died of a cancer and this was how he coped. which hey fair. but also, please look outside your own grief. the cancer isn't a person and so making the big bad a witch with cancer isn't fair. the big bad is not an allegory for cancer, it's someone who HAS it. and when you say people WITH that disease are parasites... well. you piss me off. as someone who had it. and had family basically later days out the minute i wasnt gonna die.

but even that is like - ok, i get it, youre mixed up and angry and this is about you (the director/writer) so i can forgive that lack of tact. the actress for the big bad is a total show stealer, absolutely carries the final reel and gives such range. her costuming is great. i can forgive that. and i can forgive a sort of no-moral-theatre where floating ak47s mean nothing and where character segments may or may not actually matter to the final piece, because it's more about the ride than the finale. that's horror, right?

but what i don't like is that all his grief at losing this person in his life, all his feelings about cancer as a parasite (its a mutation not a parasite... the call is coming from inside the house...) all his complex baggage of growing up under an alcoholic parent who he had to parent.... why does all this mean that the only two gays in the film - kindly, loving, child-protecting gays - get murdered for no reason at all. no crime at all, no transgression at all. why does your grief involve punching down at the gays. other than the fact that its 2025 and americans are being brainwashed into full fascism so love to see a minority die for their feelings. oh and did i mention that the Only Non White in the movie is one of the gays who dies? yeah. what the fuck is with that man. what the fuck.

and yet, it's still better than LongLegs.

LongLegs is just on its face a weird allegory for THAT director's daddy issues. i am not even extrapolating, he has said this quite openly in interviews. his father was a famous silver screen star. his father was also gay, and forced to live his life in the closet. his mother being a 60s mom i guess tried to just hide this from the kids. the director takes his feeling that his father was a childhood destroyer (WHY, because HE was suffering?) and gives it to an extremely queer coded nick cage. he takes his feelings that his mother was a conspirator (WHY, because she DIDNT support his father?) and makes women in his movie evil and conspiring with the queer coded child killer. and buddy, that's fucked up. you're turning a dead man's suffering into a story about how your FEELS make you think your childhood was 'murdered' because gays exist. LongLegs is nothing but homophobia propped up on a 90s tv nostalgia aesthetic. garbage, garbage film used to excise the issues of a garbage man who can not bring himself to understand why a gay man in the 50s and 60s might try to force himself to live straight and then fail. punching extremely down, because YOU didnt get the heterosexual football tossing daddy you wanted. eat my entire anus, tbqh.

so where am i going with this other than two vague horror reviews? i guess i'm just trying to hash out that to me, horror is always some kind of venting - one way or another. MudBrick from 2023 which i thought ruled was an almost cultural venting, but the sense of estrangement and entitlement and toxic masculinity is all there. you watch the Excorcist and the anxiety of a changing time where catholicism was falling out of favor for science, where you could be divorced, where women found themselves working longer hours and feared what this was doing to their children... it's all there. Sometimes it's much more obvious anxious venting, like Blair Witch being "what if we got super lost in the woods"

but this also means sometimes when a horror film rubs me the wrong way, i have to sit down and examine why it did that. and more often than not, what i find is that the creator was in some way attacking a minority group that doesn't deserve it because of their personal issues that they need to work on. to steal the meme, Men will Literally Write An Entire Screenplay About Their Gay Dad As A Supernatural Child Murderer Instead Of Go To Therapy. but the problem is not every movie goer is /thinking/ about film. so for a lot of people it just washes over them and the bits that are reaffirmed by propaganda (such as "queers bad" usa 2025) stick in their brains like bits of turd glomming to the inside of a filthy toilet. essentially, you need to be responsible for the negative ideas you're putting into the world even IF youre venting.

to bring it back around to Weapons - i've heard some people say the movie is also a school shooter allegory. i disagree, i think instead it's the anxiety that a parent has that their child could BECOME a shooter. even though there are no guns, the idea that these empty placid children could be secreted away and turned into bloodthirsty mobs by the wrong person? I think that's a very normal american anxiety right now. but this brings me back around to 'who dies in this film is a choice' tho.

because the young boy who is caring for his allegorically alcoholic parents? they get to live. he gets to keep his parents.

and the parents of the allegorically weaponized brainwashed children? they get to keep their children. they all live.

but the happy gay couple of the school principal who was doing a mandated wellfare check on the boy caring for his allegorically alcoholic parents??? they must die??? why? why dont the gay couple get eachother after this event? why is there only death and no bittersweet future for them? why did you make the CHOICE, 2025, to bury your gays?

"i didn't think that hard about it" seems to be most of what this writer/director says when asked teasing questions about his film. but to me, "not thinking that hard about it" says a lot about how someone operates on default. his default says gays deserve to die, no struggling forward for us. and more than that, we die as a tool of those who would do our children harm. uhm. what the fuck guy. this shit doesnt exist in a vaccuum. thanks for adding to the general vibe of homophobia in thsi country, which i am almost certain was more an attempt to avoid being critiqued for "woke" choices like "maybe gays should live" than anything else.

this isnt to say every horror movie that offends me and i spend hours turning over in my head comes up as 'what the fuck did you do, man.' Koji Shiraishi is a total fav director of mine. most well known for Noroi, he's got a relatively expansive bench of horror. and recently i watched Record Of A Sweet Murder. it's... pretty fucking dark at points. there's rape, for one, and i really do not like that. but here's the thing. the more i thought about 'why the fuck did he make the choice to put that in the movie' the more i put it together. the film takes place in korea, and the rapists are japanese. they are portrayed as bullish, violent, lowly, just absolutely no regard for any of the people around them. only concerned with themselves and their very base desires. it took until the final reel, when i saw the (japanese) badge of the car that killed a young girl, that it clicked together. this is Shiraishi's commentary on how Japan treated Korea. how japan FUCKED UP a whole GENERATION of koreans, stole a future from them. how the wrongness of that echos through reality for him. in a weird way the film is meant to be his acknowledgement and attonement for that. pretty galaxy brained stuff, to take your anxiety at the brutality of your ancestors and homeland and turn it into horror that ultimately shows your feelings are that you owe great penance for that.

so i guess the moral here is just like... think about the horror as you consume it. ask yourself why choices are being made. why those who die die, why those who are violent are violent. do a little homework after on who wrote it and who directed it and what they have to say for themselves. it is very revealing. and maybe it'll be the start of realizing you need to avoid spreading their propaganda unknowingly.

also finished shirley jackson's The Birds Nest - i really really enjoy how though Elizabeth is clearly mentally ill from trauma and an overbearing forceful caregiver who controls her every move, you can absolutely read it in such a way that she's alternately fucking wth and fawning towards those who control her life in a seesaw of rebellion. there are a LOT of times that Dr Wright and her aunt ask or say very leading questions, or suggest TO her that she is multiple. she herself is never really like yup sure am yup yup sure identify that way unless it's in response to them encouraging her. her personality is fractured, yes, but these people constantly reaffirm its fracture. and they constantly become annoyed not with her trauma or her fractured personality, but with her pushback. it's never when she's dull and fawning that they throw their hands up and demand she see someone else or go away. it's only ever when she does things like take money that is owed to her and buy herself a coat. so really the entire book is about Elizabeth fighting against the very hetero very weirdly sexist status quo to find who she is. that's why even though we get no name in the final chapter, she informs us firmly that she knows who she is. even as her doctor and aunt bicker over this very question.

going to spend most of today painting in hopes i can sell some stuff at the pride festival this weekend.

remember to Think about that which gives you anxious negative feels, especially if youre venting it into fiction. be aware of what you're perpetuating and what you're healing in that accountless realm.

ttyl
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IBBW - Arcology Systems Integration Protocol(s)

(The Itty Bitty Bigger World series is written about San San, aka San Diego - San Francisco although no one ever calls it that, a massive sprawling arcology that spans half what had been the state of California. It takes place 'twenty minutes' [or years] into the future.)

(This story is six years prior to the 'future now' in the IBBW universe.)

The sheer complexity of San San boggles the mind.

It really does.

Early writings about arcologies, real and fictional, did not grasp the immensity of the problems.

It is now considered axiomatic that an arcology could not be built prior to Protocol.

I mean, physically one could after many years of painstaking effort build something like an arcology using mere 20th century techniques. But it wouldn't 'work' for values of being habitable. Or economic. Or practical or friendly or for some issues even survivable.

The ironclad but flexible framework of Protocol is as essential as civil engineering and sanitation to making arcologies work.

Pre-arcology cities had immense bodies of municipal regulations, always unwieldly, often broken and all too rarely enforced, that allowed cities within a certain size limit to exist.

So cities were built next to each other - like New York and New Jersey. It turns out that limited interconnections are essential to keeping the intracity relationships manageable. These can be, and often were, physical bridges. Other times, strategically placed freeways that served to divide rather than to connect. Having them under different governance structures - as with Hong Kong and mainland China, say - also forced thoughtfulness about the interconnections.

While the equations are complex, the conclusion is very simple.

"The bigger they are, the harder they fall."

Ancient Rome approached the limits of a population that could be fed and watered with the technology of the time. Troops had to be deployed to constantly battle both unchecked fires and unauthorized mass violence. These troops - the 'vigiles' of Rome - gave us both the word 'vigilantes' and the first organized police and fire departments.

As technologies grew, the potential universe of interactions exploded. The issue was complexity, and complexity is itself non trivial.

Protocol is nothing more - and nothing less - than a series of rules for how human beings are to interact with each other, their environment and their system of governance.

One often misunderstood protocol is the Environmental Protocol.

"No entity may generate waste that it does not take responsibility for and manage at its own expense."

One of the shortest Protocols, it is actually one of the strictest.

Deeply interrelated is the Streams and Airs Protocol.

"An entity taking in potable water from the natural environment must suffer the discharge of its liquid wastes immediately upstream from that intake. An entity's air intake must be immediately downwind from its air pollution exhaust."

When combined, these Protocols not only outlaw dumping, but require a sophisticated ecological consciousness. If an entity - ranging from a building to an entire ecology - generates noxious products, that entity is the first to suffer from exposure to them.

It is not that a building's air intakes must literally be next to that building's exhaust system. It is that this could be so, and no harm would result.

The broadest possible definition of 'waste' applies. One early fission plant used sea water for cooling. This is waste. Waste heat. When it sucked in vast quantities of salt water, it also absorbed plankton and other tiny sea life that was cooked and became waste. So to make this legacy plant comply with Protocol, both the use of seawater for cooling and what could be done with the now hotter seawater both had to be revised.

A side codicil of the Environmental Protocol is that there is no exception for disaster. If your building catches fire, you are dumping massive quantities of carcinogens and hazardous chemicals into the public air. This also violates the Streams and Airs protocol. So the building owner is now on the hook for massive environmental remediation costs. Dumping gaseous waste into the public air is just as bad as dumping liquid waste into the public rivers and oceans.

So arcologies must therefore be obsessive about preventing fires. They must also be ready to handle them, should they occur anyway.

The modern descendants of the 'vigiles' are neither the fire department nor the police department, nor the emergency medical services or the hazardous material response teams - although all these functions still exist and are augmented as applicable.

It is Arcology Public Works.

The arcology, in this case San San, although the same model applies to arcologies from Siberia to Mars, in geosynch and in the Outer System ... ahem ... the arcology provides services to its members and accepts their wastes. The arcology applies Protocols and local regulations and governance techniques to allow neighbors to live in peace without affecting each other.

The organizations that became Arcology Public Works grew out of city public works departments, roads departments, transportation agencies, water agencies, sanitation districts, but especially electrical power utilities. All their functions were interrelated, especially in an energy rich and technologically sophisticated environment.

Again, as with the emergency services, all of these named functions still exist and are augmented as applicable. But Arcology Public Works coordinates them all, manages their interactions and sets decision rules for how they serve their customers - which include each other.

Arcology Public Works specifies everything from the width of corridors to the minimum fire suppression requirements of high rise buildings. The all encompassing term 'works' is sometimes misunderstood as vast projects, enormous physical plant with throbbing tubes and wires and pipes. While these exist, they are not what makes Public Works ... ah, work.

Much of the time, Arcology Public Works is represented by people - men, women, both or neither - who benignly watch and take occasional notes as huge projects are erected and interconnections completed.

When things go wrong, badly wrong, in such a way that neighbor impacts neighbor and problems cascade into tragedies, Public Works leaps into action. They assume command, they tell both routine and emergency services what to do - under a system that was called the Incident Command or Incident Management System prior to its grandchild becoming Protocol.

Most importantly, they make quick decisions when someone must make them and there is no time. (Slow decisions are for the courts - discretionary matters can be weighed, realtime matters cannot.)

It is no accident that Arcology Public Works grew out of the United States Army Corps of Engineers.

Their errors could raze an arcology more mercilessly than any flood, fire or invading army.

They are one of the last public institutions to use military ranks and to be formally commissioned.

###

I regain consciousness in a shattered capsule. Robots are digging me out of quickfoam.

My search and rescue helmet and ironically enough, flotation life jacket have also helped preserve me from injury. But what goes fast must slow down, and the same capsule that saved my life by racing out of the blast radius of the Sacramento River explosion had to come to a halt, quickly enough to matter but slowly enough to keep the occupants - including me! - from becoming chunky salsa.

Medic bots are intubating another occupant. I use virtual reality assisted visualization briefly. A broken neck. She will live but she is out of the fight. The medic bots can be entrusted with her care, and as they apply ANLS - Advanced Neurologic Life Support - to bridge the damage to her spinal cord, I crawl out of the capsule and take off the orange bulky vest.

Behind us is a growing mushroom cloud. Subatomic fusion. Arcology power systems do not play nicely with others when they fail. This particular one failed due to thermal runaway - it generated heat faster than it could shed that heat, and the heat melted its control system. *FWHOOMP*

By chance we are close to a command node of Arcology Public Works.

My bracelets pulse red and blue.

This is not something I told them to do.

In all effect I've been drafted. I am no longer responsible for rescuing people drowning in the river. They were evacuated or they were vaporized, or if they were very unlucky flash boiled.

My highest and best use is now to play reserve peace officer, to bodyguard the command node, as my virtual reality system tells me in the compressed codes of visual overlay.

"CSAR-6 ANDERSON ACTIVATED RSV LAW -> ICP #4. FORCE I&UT DEADLY AUTHORIZED BUT NOT 1ST RESORT."

I'm not armed. My smartgun is presumably in my heavily armored backpack back at Staging. But I have the bracelets, and they are both stunners - capable of projecting a laser that carries a jammimg pulse that disrupts nervous tisssue - and slammers, which project energy ranging from a gentle shove to an anvil Acme only wishes it could sell wayward coyotes for use on roadrunners.

So I make my way to the perimeter area and report in ... oh. I'm the only policing resource.

So I order bots. Policing bots are specialized and busy, but capsule maintenance bots have a stunner on their multi arm and are available in quantity.

Then I order barriers. Everything takes time. So I settle for a line of aerostat ribbon that floats in the air, a cursory barrier that bots must obey and humans will be stunned by.

Unless they have an anti stun field. Then I have to decide whether I have exhausted first resort.

Under Incident Command Protocol, Security reports to Facilities which reports to Logistics. But the only facilities here are people sitting in a series of half circles, half talking to each other and half waving their fingers in the air. Their VR interfaces make them controllers and leaders, as opposed to what a prior generation might mistake for crazy people.

That's another couple of fixes. I order food dispensers, portapotties, water supplies and a single decrepit but functional medbot for coverage.

They are going to save the day. I am going to keep them safe.

One of them is standing tall and giving a lecture as if to the air. A small camera bot is hovering nearby attentively.

"My name is Jacqueline LaTorra. I am the Public Information Officer for the Sacramento River incident. At about 3:17 PM today, a power supply reactor belonging to Pacific Electrical and Gaseous Fuels experienced a thermal bloom that affected several other nearby reactors. Immediately, Arcology Public Works started to rectify the situation by a combination of load switching and emergency orbital lasing. These efforts were not successful..."

It's her job to keep the public informed, not mine.

Several media bots approach the limits of the ribbon, observe carefully all that is happening, but stop. That is their purpose and their right.

One approaches me.

"On duty _In Re Jones_," I incant and it backs away hastily. I can't talk to it, I'm not authorized to talk to it, and I'm busy. I can however, for a small fine if I'm wrong, blow it into fist sized fragments if it seems to be interfering with incident management.

Some of the leadership is arguing and with augmentation, I can hear them. So can the media bots and therefore the entire world.

I don't have the expert system commentary the media bots do. But they are talking about load balancing and losing additional reactors.

Properly, we should be seating them all in capsules and getting them at least out of public view. But the capsules are busy, the systems inform me. Evacuations.

More evacuations. More reactors at risk. I check hazard graphics. No, ICP #4 is not safe. It is transferring its functions to a more distant ICP as insurance against its ... imminent? IMMINENT! ... destruction.

I have nowhere to run to and no way to run anyway. Hiding doesn't work against energies of this magnitude, which are unhealthy for living things. I check the scalar again. And also unhealthy for planetary surfaces.

My vision darkens for a third time this day as orbital lasers start digging a hole.

Wait just a second. I saw this pattern before. Just before the last series ...

A rapid subvocalization.

"CSAR-6 Anderson LIFE SAFETY ABSOLUTE revocation orbital laser authority Sacramento River incident STAT STAT STAT."

The orbital lasers shut off.

"Authentication?"

Just like what in a prior age was called blue-on-blue or friendly fire protocols, an order to stop citing life safety is treated by Protocol systems as an absolute requirement. Then they validate the request.
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I can't validate the request myself.

So I wade past the aerostat line, my VR identifies Incident Command #4, and I get his attention in real meatspace by grasping his hand.

"The orbital lasers are the problem! They are causing the bloom!" I insist.

I have no idea whether what I am saying is true.

I may wake up stunned and in restraints. I may just not wake up at all.

But the Incident Commander and I both 'see' in VR the same data packet. A slight orbital laser targeting change. From digging out access to shut down endangered reactors, to the exact coordinates that the IC and I are standing.

It's a hack. The space lasers are not our friend.

"IC #4 releasing Orbital Lasing to Protocol Hard Lockdown, Authorization San Francisco One Five Niner Willheim!"

And the orbital lasers are not our resource to use anymore. Or someone else's resource to abuse.

The old hard way, to shut down the reactors by bot and where necessary by hand - armored suit. The slow way but at least right now, the safer way.

I return to my posting. But I start calling for help.

Protocol Enforcement. Network Integrity Solutions. Highway Patrol. UC Stanford Accident Control.

An hour of worry, two smartplastic bottles of water later, and did I mention the worry?

"After detailed review, the orbital laser rescue protocol was subtly compromised. After the emergency shutoff the compromise became briefly explicit and therfore utterly denied. CSAR-6 released."

My bracelets ceased pulsing red and blue, I sighed heavily and started the long walk towards the nearest working capsule station. With the word 'released' my accesses terminated and I was no longer part of the team.

No harm no foul, I'm a volunteer anyway.

That didn't mean I was done with the problem. Far from it.

As I walked the long dreary miles towards a ride home, my smartware, my legal software and my contracted specialists started digging into the obvious question.

Who would want to blow up a chunk of the San San Arcology?

Little did I realize, this was the event that brought my existence to the attention of the man we would all someday call the Mastermind.

Vencord

Aug. 27th, 2025 10:53 am
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Heeyyy so with the way things are going some of you that use Discord may be interested in Vencord
https://vencord.dev/

It adds all kinds of quality of life features to Discord, visual options (it can import themes from Better Discord), and other little goodies
https://vencord.dev/plugins
Personally, I'm fond of Better Folders, and being able to import my Last.FM strobbles as a status (just like what Trillian does Natively) It is also nice for blocking certain data collection so... yanno.. >_> may be useful...

Because it is a patch on top of the native discord install, you shouldn't run into the same problems with incompatibility faced with better discord.

It's worth noting that the plugins mention the ability to see hidden channels. I'd like to assure that it just lets you see that the channel exists at all, but no one can see the contents of the channels. (so if you've ever had someone get weird about hidden channels they shouldn't know about, this is probably why: they could see that they exist at all with Vencord)

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